“Consume my heart away; sick with desire
And fastened to a dying animal
It knows not what it is,”
W.B. Yeats
I love this verse by Yates. I can meditate on it for hours.
It sums up beautifully the ache in my heart. For I am a living creature filled with desire tied to a dying animal, and I don’t know who I am.
My heart aches with desire to create but there is something holding it back; an emotion that no longer serves me, like a dying animal. And hidden from view, under this rot, lies my real identity; my true essence. As a result, I cry in despair because I don’t know who I am.
Every night I wonder what it will take to free myself from this decaying carcass. The answer keeps me guessing while hope keeps me searching.
How long my quest will take or whether I’ll succeed is unknown. However, I have no doubt that when I do unchain myself I will know for certain who I am. And when I know who I am my heart will be free to sing its song.
With much love,
Lorlinda Osborne
Burning With Desire to Create 
Aug 14, 2014 @ 10:06:18
Lorlinda..so glad you found my blog so I could find you and connect…I see your amazing talent to speak that which has not been spoken..as you tap into the unknown..At first when you write something..there may be only the whisper in the wind listening..as you are discovering all that you have to give.. has always been within….and is simply unbounded …Heart to heart Robyn
Aug 14, 2014 @ 12:01:05
Thank you Robyn for your poetic words of wisdom. I have and will continue to read them over and over as I pursue my journey down the road of discovering myself. I’m glad I found your blog too. Much love, Lorlinda
Aug 17, 2014 @ 12:37:02
Lorlinda, I was having a computer challenge responding to your comment on “Near Death experience” and wanted to say that being a sensitive with the experience you have had is such a gift..Our connection I am grateful for,as we are able to bring our experiences into our bodies more and more grounding in this light. I am being of service 50 hours per week in August as I assist with my friends…coming back into the blogging world more the end of August! I am really excited about following your journey as well.
Aug 01, 2014 @ 10:33:57
Thank you for this awesome capture of what is so difficult to express: an indescribable longing to be further along our path than we are, and the ability to describe where we are. Or at least that’s what speaks to me in this poetic piece. I’ve been struggling with my muse, or her elusiveness. One of the things I find the most frustrating is that when the flow of creativity is HERE I can hardly keep up! It’s like I see things to write about and create about everywhere, and then – poof – it’s gone and I cannot seem to urge it back of my own accord. So we wait. Reading this wonderful post just strengthens the solidarity I feel with you, my Soul Sister! Love and Light, and strength in the journey, your SS Gina
Aug 01, 2014 @ 12:41:26
Hello Gina, you beautiful soul. Thank you so much for posting a comment. I’ve missed you.
That “longing to be further along our path than we are,” is a real struggle for me. Thank you for condensing it and putting it into plain English for me. This longing is at the root of all my frustrations; like a spoiled child.
Ah, the elusive muse. Here one minute gone the next, and fickle. I know her well. She loves to play; so don’t fret. My advice is to go have some fun and then sit quietly. She always returns.
Yes, there is a beautiful harmony between us. When your energy is near I vibrated at a higher level.
Love and light back at ya soul sister.
Lorlinda xo
Jul 31, 2014 @ 14:32:21
Beautifully written. You have captured the essence of the creative soul.
Jul 31, 2014 @ 15:02:20
Thank you Laurie. I know you’re a very creative soul. So, I’m deeply touched that my post resonated with you. Sometimes when you just put it out there you wonder whether any one will get it.
Jul 31, 2014 @ 20:11:02
I hear you loud and clear!